my lifeas itis.
Monday, July 31, 2006
Oh, I would also like to complain about the printer. It is now inkless and is more useful as a table than as what it is supposed to be. A printer.
My room is a mess. I cannot focus. Project work is going to a place I strive to stay away from. Am trying to motivate myself to work hard. I cannot keep thinking of the disincentives of not doing my work to actually make me do my work. It only makes me more depressed.
I would like to go on a diet also. Damn TAF is also irritating. Running everyday should not be condoned. It is disruptive(to sleep) and energy consuming. I have many classes on the 4th floor.
Am feeling slightly better after venting everything on this blog. Will now try to do some work.
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12:10 AM
Sunday, July 30, 2006
My youngest brother has a girlfriend. I pity the poor girl. My other brother needs a girlfriend badly. But I really can't think of any girl I hate enough to set him upon her. Don't ask anyhting about me. I'll just ignore you. Am a little sad though. Shut up.
I am really cheesed off with my brothers. They waltz into my room whenever they feel like it, claiming that it is the "boy's" and that it is their right to do so. Yet the moment anyone mentions anything about cleaning the damn room, they immediately switch to "its Hidhir's so he should clean it". Damn irritating.
Drama is also another ordeal. WHYYYYY do I keep joining CCAs that occupy A LOT of my time? Drama was supposed to be a 'slack' CCA but no, the teacher in charge had to my ambitiousifnotmaniaclike literature teacher. Who hires an external instructor yet does not regard his advice whatsoever, leaving us torn as to who should we listen to. The one who can make the performance better? Or the one who can make our lives hell? Tough pick.
Am neglecting all my homework. Am gonna die because of it. Damn COP is irritating the hell out of me. Isn't our fault the key chains are ugly and no one wants to buy it.
Am also playing digimon card battle(playstation). Is the main reason for lack of homework done. Am a little depressed. Am not looking forward to school at all. PE is hell.
I think I need a vacation already. The last one wasn't long enough. School took away 3/4 of it...
Listening to Daniel Powter's Bad Day is not helping.
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11:42 PM
Monday, July 24, 2006
What in the world is wrong with this coputer?? Urm...no, I'm not gona waste time talking about this useless piece of scrap that clearly belongs in the....wait, I already am wasting my time......
AHHHH!!!! GAYLE!!!! NOO!!!!!! WHYYYY!!!!!!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!
Joakim shld be the one out...oops, wait, in SG Idol, the best goes out first rite?
Haix...school was supposed to end at 3.10 today...ended at six instead. Honestly, why in the world are the teachers so ...so obsessed with make up lessons? They should be able to get the list of public holidays before the year starts right? Then they should be able to plan the contents according to the number of days they are going to have, not the number of wok days in a year. If the teacher is the one who is absent, I can understand. Sort of. But its ridiculous when they say,"Oh, you're going to miss Economics lecture on Good Friday, all of you have to come for a make up next Monday."
Hmm, maybe I just don't like staying back in school all that much. Then again, who does?
And I feel that I am wasting my time writing stoies and posting them on fanfiction.net.... sure, people read. But they never review, so I cannot find ways to improve on my writing. And I won't even know if people are really reading my stories or had just read halfway before losing interest in it. Ah, well. guess I'll just continue when I have the time. But ONLY in my SPARE time. Homework is making sure I have very little of that.
new poem:
PEARL
A glistening pearl.
Sparkling in the darkness
of the mother oyster's shell.
Jammed into a bed of coral.
Unable to free itself.
But it is safe.
Safe from the storm raging
above the sea...
BY- Muhammad Hidhir Bin MD Razak
It DOES have a meaning in it. AND NO. Not that I want a pearl or a storm or anything......coral would be nice though. Not the pointy ones.
I'm not gonna complain about my project work anymore. Life is short.
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10:43 PM
What in the world is wrong with this coputer?? Urm...no, I'm not gona waste time talking about this useless piece of scrap that clearly belongs in the....wait, I already am wasting my time......
AHHHH!!!! GAYLE!!!! NOO!!!!!! WHYYYY!!!!!!!! AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!
Joakim shld be the one out...oops, wait, in SG Idol, the best goes out first rite?
Haix...school was supposed to end at 3.10 today...ended at six instead. Honestly, why in the world are the teachers so ...so obsessed with make up lessons? They should be able to get the list of public holidays before the year starts right? Then they should be able to plan the contents according to the number of days they are going to have, not the number of wok days in a year. If the teacher is the one who is absent, I can understand. Sort of. But its ridiculous when they say,"Oh, you're going to miss Economics lecture on Good Friday, all of you have to come for a make up next Monday."
Hmm, maybe I just don't like staying back in school all that much. Then again, who does?
And I feel that I am wasting my time writing stoies and posting them on fanfiction.net.... sure, people read. But they never review, so I cannot find ways to improve on my writing. And I won't even know if people are really reading my stories or had just read halfway before losing interest in it. Ah, well. guess I'll just continue when I have the time. But ONLY in my SPARE time. Homework is making sure I have very little of that.
new poem:
PEARL
A glistening pearl.
Sparkling in the darkness
of the mother oyster's shell.
Jammed into a bed of coral.
Unable to free itself.
But it is safe.
Safe from the storm raging
above the sea...
BY- Muhammad Hidhir Bin MD Razak
It DOES have a meaning in it. AND NO. Not that I want a pearl or a storm or anything......coral would be nice though. Not the pointy ones.
I'm not gonna complain about my project work anymore. Life is short.
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10:43 PM
Monday, July 17, 2006
I bring to you some quotes from all over to help you with whatever you are facing (emotinally). HOwever, some quotes should not be taken too seriously...
~The freedom of speech entitles one to say what one needs to say, not what one wants to~
-me
~Freedom to choose need to come with wisdom to make the right choice~
-anonymous
~I can't think about the future. To do that, I need to sort out the present first..~
-some charachter from some movie
~Forget about life. Whats the use of caring so much about somthing thats not gonna last?~
-someone really depressed
~Life is too short to spend a quarter of it in school~
- me when in sec school
~Life is becoming shorter the longer I stay in this place~
-me in jc
~Someone else in the future will reflect the feelings in your heart today~
-Orange Range (jap band I really like)
~ There's no sense in telling me the wisdom of a fool~
-Frente
~You should notice that there is no other you~
- High and Mighty Colour (another jap band)
~ I did not fail 99 times (when trying to invent the lightbulb). I merely found 99 ways how a lightbulb could not work.~
- Thomas Edison
~Life is like a tangle. You can only follow one thread~
-Queen Amidala's grandmother (seriously)
~Fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, and hate....leads to the dark side~
- Yoda
~The moment you say the word "present", the present is already in the past..~
-someone with nothing better to do with his brain
~Our whole lives are spent waiting for the inevitable. In the meantime, we make the most of our time by making that wait more bearable~
-my sis
There you have it. I'd like to know any more interestin sayings ya'll might have. TAG!!!
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10:04 PM
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Here are my results for my summer test (otherwise known as mid-year exam)
H1 SUBJECTS
General Paper- E(pass)
Mother Tongue (Malay)- B(merit)
Mathematics- U(err..)
H2 SUBJECTS
Geography-C(pass)
English Literature-C(pass)
Economics-E(pass)
Well, I can't say I'm very happy with my results. Relieved, yes. Happy, no. Biggest shock for me was my GP and my Malay marks. I had expected to get a distinction for Malay. And I really thought I'd at least get a C in GP (there is no such thing as a D grade). It's really not comforting to know, through the teachers, how 'lucky' we were to have had the questions we had. How lenient they had been in marking our scripts. How the skills that were tested on were 'basic' skills, no where near the standard expected at 'A' levels.
Considering I didn't study all that much, I guess I AM lucky.......
~as aromatic as the scent of a crushed flower, petals scattering in the wind, everywhere yet no where at all~
-a thread of thought from my incredibly complex mind
Quite deep I think.....
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10:06 PM
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Hmmm.....everyone's having fever right now...WORLDCUP fever, i mean. Have to admit, I'm not as 'on' as i was four years ago, during the worldcup at Seoul... probably because I', not a wakeupat2towatchamatch kinda guy....or probably because none of my teams are up there in the semis.... but i'm backing Italy though....because they've been playing rather consistent football throughout history and not onoffonoffonoff.......I'm not sure there's been a worldcup in which Italy has not qualified......
Had a trip to OCS(Officer Cadet School) today, where they train all the commandoes, lieutenants, officers...... the compound was really pleasing to the eye: colourful buildings, interesting structures, fountains, pools of water and of course, like the rest of Singapore, has a garden-like landscape with colourful plants and greenery everywhere. Maybe I'll consider going there, it looks better than the camp at Sembawang anyway....
Most of us here in Singapore think about the future with particular attention to what jobs they want to do, what they want to major in university (did you know that the first universities on earth were built in present day Iraq and Iran?), how many kids thay have, what kind of house they want to live in...But have any of you thought about what we can do to promote change? To fuel advancement, to have an impact on others(positively of course), to leave a mark, a legacy, on this world that we live in as a testament to how we had truly Lived? Many of us don't think that way sadly....many of us question the possibiliy of such grandeur. Yet when we look at history, many things that people had deemed impossible are considered daily occurences today.Maybe the impossible is merely the untried?
I sound like a freakin motivational speaker now.....hmmmm.... a new career path reveals itself...... haha.....stanley just told me to update my blog on MSN......see lah, forgot what to say already....
Oh ya, an a cappella concert featuring yours(TAS) truly as well as some other names like Verve Enharmonics, TONE, TAG and Juz B will be held on the 28th of this month!!! Tickets are ON SALE with ME!!! $12 each!!! PLS contact me to get details or if want to come. SUPPORT ME!!!!
Anyways, a heartfelt goodbye to our dear classmate Celest, who has decided to withdraw from JC life.....sigh..... gd LUCK!!!! hopefully we'll get something for u..... maybe a momento....
Oh, what's this? A new poem? YES!!! its not by me though....
Variations on the Word "Sleep"
by Margaret AtwoodI would like to watch you sleeping,
which may not happen.
I would like to watch you,
sleeping. I would like to sleep
with you, to enter
your sleep as its smooth dark wave
slides over my head
and walk with you through that lucent
wavering forest of bluegreen leaves
with its watery sun & three moons
towards the cave where you must descend,
towards your worst fear
I would like to give you the silver
branch, the small white flower, the one
word that will protect you
from the grief at the center
of your dream, from the grief
at the center. I would like to follow
you up the long stairway
again & become
the boat that would row you back
carefully, a flame
in two cupped hands
to where your body lies
beside me, and you enter
it as easily as breathing in
I would like to be the air
that inhabits you for a moment
only. I would like to be that unnoticed
& that necessary.
This is one of my favourite poems, found it through my literatrure assignments...we had to do a practical criticism on it. I especially love the last stanza....
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10:34 PM