my lifeas itis.
Friday, September 29, 2006
Have not been updating as regularly as i would have liked. No doubt the readership has fallen(again).
As I have said before, I have decided not to post anymore poems on this blog but I have been writing. I have around twelve new poems, none of which will be posted on this blog except for the following one.
I Shall Speak BY: Muhammad Hidhir Bin MD Razak
Because my mind will waste away
Because the years will never stay
I shall speak now and have my say
Before time takes me as prey
Because eternity will last forever
Because infinity, it ends never
I shall speak now, to last forever,
Words, ageless, with rhyme and power
Had a GP test this morning and Malay in the afternoon. After many thoughts and reflections done, I have decided that had not done as well as I would have liked. But I still am hoping for a pass. Please, I didn't do THAT badly(I hope).
Comment on the poem? One can only hope....
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11:29 PM
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Am not being very productive lately.....have not been finishing tutorials, not revising enough, not paying enough attention in class....HIDHIIIIRR!!! WAAKKE UUUPPP!!!!! NEEEEED TOOO STUUUUDEEEE.......
anyway, passed my geog and econs test ^^. thats great and all but.... now people are assuming that i'm a mugger. or is just so unbelievably smartassholic that he can't possibly fail anything he touches. i'm sick of it. i dunno how to respond when people say such things to me, things like "aiyah, you smart lah" or "shuddup lar, you pass the test lor". I am NOT complaining about passing my tests. On the contrary, i am very relieved (happy is too strong a word). But still, its the stupid reactions i get from people.
For those who are wondering why i can pass when I said i never study is because i make links. not in the essays, but the way i see things. for example: poverty= no money/income, no money because no source of income, no source of income=no jobs available, no jobs available because no one wants to invest in that region, why? cos the government thr might be corrupt or climate is nasty.......see? LINK PEOPLE!!! its all helpful advice from my sister's tutor who tutors not 8 year old mathematics but jc and uni students.
According to him, every subject has different 'keys' to unlock it. For english, begin speaking and reading good english and only then can it be transfered into good writing. for maths, its about knowing HOW to use the formulas provided, not just memorising them.....and so on. humanities needs the student to build linkages between different issues, between earthquakes and plate movements, between HMT and female oppression, between cost of production and profit margin....
No, though i am keeping my options open, i am NOT putting my foot down to becoming a teacher. I may want to be a lawyer, politician or a clown for all i care so please stop predicting what i'm gonna be when i grow up. I still love singing thouh i'll be taking a break from it till december.
Then all of you can come to along orchard road to see me perfrom ^^
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12:05 AM
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Am so dead...AAAARRRGGGHHHH!!!!!! lets see... 230 to 430 tmr i'll have lit lecture...i think we are doin presentations. (priority status: compulsory) but at the same time, i have TAS rehearsal from 300 to 5oo. (priority status: my neck is at stake)......thats not all
on thursday: i'll have econs remedial from 440 t o 540. (priority status: compulsory) BUT i still have an interview at Mt Elizabeth Hospital at 5oo (priority status: RED ALERT!)!!!! how!!!
Other than, of course, all the assignments, essays, pw, tests.... TESTS!!! EXAM!!!! MY MIDCOURSE IS COMING!!!!
STUUUUUDDDDDEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! MMMUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSTTTT!!!!!!!!!! PREEEEEEEVVVAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIILLLLLLLL!!!!!!! DDDDIIIIIIIIEEEEEEE LLAAAAAAAAAaaaAAAAArrrrrrrr!!!
this week is gonna be the last week for my assignments, to complete everything that was given out...errrr....weeks ago. then its a fresh, new, rigorous mugging period up till end of exams...
am not feeling very muggish rite now. need to get ino the zone...god i'm turning into my worst nightmare!!!!
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11:26 PM
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Was supposed to go to the bloody Singapore/Brunei Malay debates this afternoon. After taking a bus that was SUPPOSED to go to Andrew Road, where the MBC was located, I got hopelessly lost and the only thing that saved me was that the bus passed by a familliar part of town(Bugis) and from there I made my way to the nearest MRT Station(Bugis). Only in the sardine can (a.k.a MRT train) did I realise that I had just passed up the chance to go to the Humongous(not its real name in case you didn't know) National Library that was located just around the corner. Shucks.
Heard they have a respectable amount of books on literature in the Borrowing Section. Ah well....
By the way, is anyone reading this? I need to know. If not many people are reading then I won't bother trying to change the blogskin. Not that the present one is ugly or whatever. Its just kind of....boring to have nothing much to see other than part of a key board and the rear end of someone who is supposedly a pianist.
But then comes the question of HOW to change the skin....heheh..any volunteers?? *ducks flying cannon balls*
With regards to my project, I'm trying to think positive. I have a feeling everything is gonna work out great(we won't fail) since all my previous projects, I don't remember failing one, are all results of last minute work. =)
I still have all my work to do so I'm not sure why I'm blogging right now. Hmmm...
Am gonna kill my little brother. He keeps coming into my room to fart and has already done so more than once. (its no laughing matter) ((really)) *suffocates to death*
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9:00 PM
They can all go to hell. And stay there.
Not sure why I'm writing this.
Wrote a poem.
Not gonna post it.
Shortest post ever. wow.
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1:46 AM
Thursday, September 07, 2006
In my humble opinion, people are indeed selfish by nature. It is their basic instinct to think of any advantages or disadvantages they might set upon themselves when making a decision or when they find themselves forced into a situation they are unable to squeeze themselves out of. To be selfish, by definition, is to be thinking of one's own well being without any particular regard for others.
Now why did I began this entry with what seemed like a GP essay????
I have no idea. Just felt like it.
AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY SANITY!!!!!!!!! IT DISAPPEARED!!!
If I hear one more word of encouragement from my father, I am going to hide away in shame. Honestly, talk about pressure!! I know that when he saw me set my sight on JC, he thinks i'm gonna go for the bigtime like becoming a lawyer, a power broker, a magistrate.....not once did i hear him ask me about what career paths I might want to choose. The last time I talked about becoming a teacher, he bluntly pointed out that teachers are graduates without any othe job options..... gee, thanks a lot.
He talks about how much money one can make. Is income still considered as a measure of success?? I guess the term 'in pursuit of passion' has got no weight what so ever on soem minds. It just sad. And there he was talking about how young people nowadays have no ability, no guts to make the local music and film industry what it was during it's golden age in the 50's, 60's and early 70's...
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7:08 PM
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
oh wow..I'm blogging...
I went to Geylang today with my mum and bros. My mum wanted us to experience something called electrical field therapy. Supposed to be good for you. It apparantly helps to speed up the metabolic processes within your body while the therapy is going on, at the same time promoting blood circulation and cleaner arteries.
What you do is to basically sit on a chair that has been wired to a specially designed electrica generator. Switch the machine on and voila!! Nothing much happens. You just sit there until 30 mins is up. W#hile you are sitting, 9000 volts of electricity is coursing through your body. In case you are wondering why i'm still alive, its because the current applied is only 0.0016 A.....not enough to kill you. The only precaution you have to take is to not touch anyone while being...err....treated. Otherwise, you will get a shock.
Currently experiencing aches at my joints as well as lethargy. According to the therapist, those are normal effects that show that the thrapy is working. But to feel the full effects, one needs to continue going for at least two weeks. I don't think I'm going back there. Those were the most boring 30 mins of my....I cannot say life. There are still those nasty econs lectures to think about. Urm...nost boring 30 mins of the day. Yes, that's it.
I really dunno why a lot of people don't like Corrinne May. Her songs are easy to relate to, down to earth and, refreshingly, not saturated with sexual innuendos. 0_0 Maybe the last part was the reason she's not popular?? Hahar...joking.... hope its not true though...
Am currently horrified at myself for not touching my school notes for the last two days. My exams are coming and God knows I need to pass those exams to get promoted. My CA, of which 60% comes from assignments, is in shambles. I THINK it's something to do with not handing my work. At least there's the class participation segment. Raise your hand, say something(anything) and you get those marks......
Fresh tomatoes are delicious...am eating one right now..
Has anyone ever thought about how the world migth be like 100 or 200 years from now? Will the Middle East ever be peaceful? Will Asia still be the centre of economic development? Will the air still be breathable? Will rabbits still exist? The last one's kinda hard to guess isn't it....
Finished my tomato. Had just realised that yours truly has stuffing his face for the past few days. Am feeling quite worried. Last time I checked, I was about 5 kg away from being of a healthy weight. Now i'm not so sure. I should at least exercise once or twice in the following week. Anyone fancy a 10 km hike at Macritchie?
Hmm.....I am feeling nostalgic. My movements are being controlled and watched(to a certain extent). Freedom of speech is controlled. Indoctrination and brainwashing is everywhere(from the number of people who actually believe that SI is a talent show) and everyone is expected to put on a face despite what they truly feel(land of four million smiles my a**). These are the features of a Dystopia, an opposite of a Utopia. Is there anyone out there who gets what I'm saying??
The holidays, as usual, suck.
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8:03 PM