my lifeas itis.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
I think people have absolutely nothing left to talk about in this world. It is always about someone else(gossip), BGR(with gossipy examples), food and weather.
Urm.....that being said.....not much to say afterall.......
Have gotten back two of my results(and hints of how we did for the others). Things do not bode well for me right now.......shit...... I was really looking forward to the UK trip.......
Have got to start revising all of last years topics starting from next week....thus, I'll be giving myself this weekend to rest and play.....
There....an update....
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8:35 PM
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Anyone here remember a movie entitled Pass It On? Starring Haley Joel Osmond and Helen Hunt? That movie had a very important message and I have just kicked myself for not heeding it. Our world is in lots of trouble. We all know it. The environment, wars and conflicts, materialism, little green men with lazer guns..... we all know it. But what are we doing about it? Chances are, not much. We go to school, we go out, we study. But we can do something and here it is. You may have heard of it, read of it, watched a movie based on it. Now, be a PART of it.CHALLENGE: MAKE A DIFFERENCE!I issue a personal challenge to all here to pass on an act of kindness. It can be for a friend, a family member, a pet, a neighbour or even a complete stranger you've just met. The act need not be an overly generous act. It can be as simple as smiling at a complete stranger just passing by, it can be buying a treat for your little sister, it can be leaving a ten cent coin in a public phone so that the next person can use it for free, leaving a post-it note with a nice comment inside a library book or even just donating loose change to a student doing his CIP hours(and being glad to do so, and offer some encouragement or two).I challenge you to do it within one week of reading this message and to continue doing it after that any time you feel like it or whenever you get the chance. Compliment your mother's clothes(of course, do it when she does look nice), switch places with a person at the back of a queue, drop loose change at a playground where children can find it. These are the small things that can brighten up someone's day.And lastly, I ask all of you to pass on this message. You can choose to do it verbally, you can choose to email all on your contact list this message, you can paste a notice on a notice board, an internet forum, or even just cut and paste this into your blog. I hope that together, we can really make a difference in this world. It might not be a big one. But remember that for someone out there, someone sad or tired or lonely, it may just be enough. I'll admit right now, I'm only doing this after watching this video on Youtube.http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVY5IpSDUYEYes, I am still clueless as to how to put the actual video in my blog.
Oh, and do tag me to respond, tell me if you are planning to spread the message or do an act of kindness or even tell me a kind act you did after reading the post. I'll be very happy. Just tell me anything, really.
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2:53 AM
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Just watched Phantom Of the Opera just now. It was ok, i guess. It's the second time i've watched it and i still find myself humming to the tune of All I Ask Of You.
By using up those 3 hours, I've sacrificed studying for Econs and Math tomorrow, which probably means I'll do horribly for Maths. Econs I still have hope for. I didn't study for the previous two tests and still did better than expcted. Yes, I'm very mature, I know.
As for Maths.... I'll get a U as usual. My math teacher has kindly told the class that they are not testing us on Differentiation and Integration. The two topics I worked my ass off for last year an have any hope of scoring for is no being tested for. And thus the U (mind you, even with those two topics tested, i still go a U for my Mid-Course).
Literature is not a big worry. I only need to master the art of writing three four-page essays within three hours.
Geography, I'm relying on the logic that i have grasped that flows through Human Geography. Urbanization, Globalisation and Population I can handle. Its the Physical component I'm not so sure off. What with Lithospheric Processes, Hydrological Processes and now Atmospherical Processes.... it takes too much memory work, I think.
General Paper: over and done with. What a fiasco that was. I don't think i failed it though.
Hmmm.....I've spent most of my holidays slacking......... diediediediediediediediediediedie...........
Saw True Files regarding the maid who killed the woman. Saw the way the maid had to serve life imprisonment just besause she killed some abusive bitch who didn't know the worh of another human being. Life imprisonment. Hello? Is it just me or is something wrong with the picture here?
Sure, she killed. She distinguished a life, a life that was no doubt precious(to some anyway) and i guess she should be punished. But social justice should only affect the punishment so far.
Furthermore, the judgement should be passed with as little bias as possible. The maid was Indonesian. The so called victim was a Singaporean. Am i assuming too much if i say the judge may have been a little prejudiced? Hmm... anyway....gah...I'm going to sleep. Justice in Singapore still has a long way to go, I think.
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10:09 PM
Sunday, March 11, 2007
Not a cheerful entry. You have been warned.
Have you ever had that feeling where everything is just not worth it? I mean, you get great results, you work hard, you get great results again(not saying i will), you go into university(not saying i will), you get a great job(whatever), get that perfect wife, get that perfect family, get that terminable disease and then you get your face printed in the Orbituary Section(if your children happen to be rich). And some people don't even get to go the full cycle.
Some of you may have heard about the 20++ year old man who died suddenly a few weeks ago(it was one the news), with speculations of him having the Sudden Death Syndrome. That man was my sister-in-law's younger brother(rest his soul). I attended the funeral. Saw the shell-shocked face of his parents. Saw the confused face of my sister-in-law. Saw the weeping aunts and sombre uncles. Saw the deceased bride-to-be crying her intestines out, heart wrenching sobs, not even able to eat. Now i still visit them( the parents, we're quite close). They smile less, though they're still very nice. They keep his room closed though once in a while they bring the mattress out for my nephews, their grandchildren. And i couldn't help but think that it isn't fair. It isn't fair at all. He had a whole life planned out, getting married in September, going for a business trip to Germany in June( he just got promoted), maybe buying a new flat next year. Then he's dead. Just like that.
It got me thinking. Is it all worth it? All this 'do things now for your future' thing, when your life can go in a few years, a few months, tomorrow? "You all must think about what you all want to do in the future, now" Mrs Siva said to us the last Civics period. What if 'now' is all we have left and we don't even know it? What if the next time you drink, water accidentally go into your wind pipe instead of your oesophagus and you die because air can't get into your lungs? What if the next Sumatran Earthquake is the prognosticated 'big one' seismolgist have been warning us of for years(which will make the 2004 Tsunami Quake seem like a shiver) and the quake reaches Singapore? To the best of my knowledge, many if not most Singapore buildings were not built to withsatnd earthquakes. How many Jc/Poly/Uni students, sloughing away for their future, die then?
But then again, what's there to say we won't die and live until the age of 110 with our sole income the remnants of our CPF and the occasional 'hong bao'? Life is just too uncertain. I'm not saying we all just take off our clothes and run around butt naked just to live for the moment. I guess, we just need to enjoy the things we can do now, do them, balancing work and play, for both scenarios. But I'm still unsure. Really. I don't know anymore.
But life goes on i guess. My nephews will grow up never knowing they had another uncle. But that won't stop them from running in the sun, playing with sand on the beach. They will still get to watch Ugly Betty ( the show is not bad btw, i kinda like it). They'll go to school, preparing themselves for the all imporatnt future. I still get to blog, catch up with friends, read and write and fret over poems.
They say it's the little thing that matters. Those who believes this are the ones who are looking at the bigger picture. The other one looks at the big picture. But they afraid of the furture and by eing so they forgo their present.
Which one are you?
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11:45 PM
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Spent a fruitful day wondering if i should start revising for the damn block test. Still haven't come to a decision yet. In the meantime I helped around with chores, read fanfiction, played cards, listened to the radio, played FinalFantasy on PS 2, helped to cook beef soup, watched Scooby Doo and....yeah, thats it. Stressful, i know. What did you expect? I'm in JC.
I miss you guys!!!! (yeah, you who still visit this blog)
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9:55 PM
Friday, March 09, 2007
Had my GP(General Paper) Block Test just now. One word. SHIT. The topic was absolutely predictable yet i continued to speculate instead of preparing myself for it. Ms Lin just HAD to give us that extra article, didn't she? Well, its my fault I ignored her comment regarding the OTHER article begining with "This is VERY important..."
So my analytical question lacked a complete, solid example (other than about some polar bears), EVALUATION (I should just....do something horrible to myself) and a PART of the requirements. If i'm lucky, i'll get my usual 3/8.
And my vocabulary has gone to the dogs. I KNEW the meaning of inexorable. I just happen to forgot. That's one less mark away from the B i'm hoping for from GP. I might even fail. Oh no, then i won't be able to go to UK.....
What's this about going to UK, someone asked?
Here's the deal. The Humanities Department of IJC has been holding overseas trips since it was opened two years ago. One of the trips is to Pulau Tioman in Malaysia, the other is to the U.K. Over there, students will be exposed to the things we learn about in Geography, Economics and, to some extent, Literature. we will get to travel to the Lake District to learn about rivers, not to mention witness one of the most panaromic view the U.K can boast. We get to travel to Stratford-Upon-Avon, birthplace of THE William Shakepeare, where we get to visit his childhood home as well as the legendary Globe Theatre. Then we go to London where we get to attend a lecture(hah! and i'm actually looking forward to it) at the London School of Economics.
This is, of course, besides the fact that we get to experience first hand European food and culture, go crazy at the shops( and locals), as well as explore the British Museum (which houses some of the world's largest amount of booty and stolen artifacts from around the world).
But, to qualify for the trip, one must be able to 1) Pay- my mother said "We'll see" which is usually a good sign- and 2) achieve at least a pass for H2 Economics, Geography and one other H1 subject. The only H1 subject i can currently pass is GP. If i fail GP, i might have to rely on Maths (which would be an extremely laughable situation to find myself in) because Malay is no longer an option ( I got a B for my H1 Malay and I'm no longer taking it). And there is that added little detail where the teachers will only be able to take 40 students with them. If more than 40 people meets the criteria, the decision will all be made based on merit.
Meaning that if i don't do well for this block test, i can kiss U.K's ass goodbye.
On a lighter note, Yu'an and Elizabeth has labelled me as The-Guy-Who-Is-Going-To-Ruin-Their-Lives. I've not a single idea why. I was just being my usual, witty, lovable self.
I hate harping about problems.
Random thought of the day:
CONDENSATION
errr..... i don't know either.
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11:51 PM
Thursday, March 08, 2007
I am suddenly highly motivated. If Mr Chu (Choo?) is here right now I'd really like to thank him. And Raphael(sp?) too. I thought the motivational talk at the begining of Econs lecture today really helped. I can now see it. My goal: 4 As at A-levels.
Maybe 3 As?
hmm..........
Anyway, i've been doing a lot of thinking lately (yes yes yes, even I'm shocked) and I've really drawn some conclusions with regards to several things in my life. This includes:
- Life goals
- My bad habits
- My capabilities
- My abilities
- Career options(still not decided yet though general direction is there)
- BGR(thrsagirlbutivenoguts)
- Responsibilities
Thats a lot of thinking if you ask me.
Anyway, now for a random topic moment: Insensitivity.
On our journey through life, we will encounter numerous situations in which we find that it would be highly beneficial for us as well as other people to approach a certain matter with tact and consideration for others. Certain issues, such as race and religion in Singapore, are highly susceptible to unwarranted and enormous attention, partly because we feel involved in such matters as well as the need to get involved.
Matters such as the one mentioned, have been known to be dicussed publicly but let us be honest, public opinion is often well received because they are the 'right' opinions one should have and not necessarily a honest one. There are many advantages to this, one of which is that we will begin to feel a certain sense of wrongness in discriminating others for one's race. After all, whatever society accepts as correct will naturally feel right to the typical teenager or youth.
However, it sparks of an increasingly irritating habit of mincing one's words when addressing such issues. As Asians, we have always been known for our subtlety and conservative attitudes, always trying to avoid trouble whenever possible. But I fear that there will come a time when these values will be put o the test, especially since Singapore is becoming an increasingly globalised city. This problem not only limits itself to the topic of racial discrimination but also to other sensitive issues such as euthanasia, homosexuality and even abortion.
urm..... i'm not really sure where i'm going with this train of thought....maybe Yew Tee MRT station...oh wait, isn't that the station where YET ANOTHER GUY fell/jumped/whatever onto the tracks? Really, just because your life sucks/you are clumsy/whatever doesn't mean you have the right to disrupt public transport.Get a shrink or, like everybody else, endure. Life sucks, it isn't fair, it causes more grief than euphoria AND its bloody expensive so just GET OVER IT!
The government should just fine these people who are treating the MRT tracks like a portal to the next world or life or whatever. Very heavily. Don't get me started on the detrimental effects of public transport disruption on the economy.
Shakespeare is quickly making his way out of my list of favourite peolpe right now. He's dead and he still creates problems for me.
Same goes to Hadley and Ferrell for discovering the Cells (a vertical transfer of wind). On a brighter note, they weren't on any of my list in the first place.
The males in American Idol is really sucky this year. Most of them anyway. Go the-one-with-that-curly-hair-and-who-needs-to-lose-weight!! And that botak guy. I'm rooting for them....
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12:16 AM