i may not be the best. i may be misunderstood. i know i cannot be that someone you expected me to be. but i am still me. still that same off-tuned key. |
i may not be the best. i may be misunderstood. i know i cannot be that someone you expected me to be. but i am still me. still that same off-tuned key. |
Saturday, July 21, 2007
Kinda sucky...though I did improve for GP, Geog and Lit since the block test. But I know i can do better. So much better. Which is why I am now going to keep staying back after school to study. At the very least until 8 or until I'm done for the day. Then I'll need to consult my tutors. What Ms Shen, my econs teacher, told me the other day is still reverberating in mind. I'm not gonna state here what she said but i believe it will i will be better because of it.
I want to get As for my grades at the end of the year. I know i can do it, if i work really really hard. And I'm not the only one. I've seen my class, some of their work, some of their strngths and weaknesses and in my mind i cannot see them as anything else but future graduates. But some of them still need to wake up lar.
Sigh, and I am currently under a dilema right now. I want to go to Promnite but I'm kinda hesitant about asking my parents for the $7o needed by this Monday. I know things aren't really going well, especially my mother eversince she got 'fired'. Now she's trying to kick start another business venture and, well......i just don't want to make things difficult.
Contrary to what some might believe, my family is in no way well off though we are not exactly poor either. Of course, I can probably use my savings, except that after the UK trip effectively wiped out 3/4 of my savings, I'm kinda... scared. What if i need the money for more important stuff in the future? But then, this is probably the last chance I will get to attend prom. And it would make a fitting celebration to the end(hopefully) of twelve years of formal education. Not to mention it would probably be the last time I get to have fun with my classmates and great friends I have made in IJC.
But i guess i should worry more about my a-levels huh?
still the same.| 1:52 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
still the same.| 3:14 PM
try as i may.
i can never explain.
i cant' be somebody.
i'm really not.
i know there's.
some time to change.
everything's changing.
yet i don't feel.
the same.
always caught.
up in circles.
confusion is.
nothing new.
i never believed.
in dreaming.
it never.
got me very far.
i tried.
to find myself.
i always.
get lost.
no one see.
me rightly.
i'm always.
a fault.
i tried to fly.
away from reality.
but gravity.
pulled me back.
still i'll keep on playing.
that same off-tuned key.
that everybody thought of me.