i may not be the best. i may be misunderstood. i know i cannot be that someone you expected me to be. but i am still me. still that same off-tuned key.

i'll keepon playing.




name.Md. Hidhir
gender.Male
age.16++
dob.25 November 1989(Presents!!)
school.Innova Junior College
what i want. friends, world peace, 7A1s, change my password so mojo jojo couldn't come in
what i don't want. certain people to exist,little bros
fav songs. kelly clarkson's n evenescence's n many many more

my lifeas itis.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Yes...I...know...whatever did happen to the 'regular updates' that is listed under things to do in the hols...ah well....the list has gone to hell anyway.....If you want to read something that will cheer you up, pls leave right now, unless you find unbelievable, unmatched ecstacy in knowing my life isn't so bright and cheery afterall.

Was so bloody pissed off yesterday......contacted me in an afternoon on the day where i'm SUPPOSED to be free from shows....for a gig at Mercedes Benz Centre.....i had to cancel meeting with Firdaus to help buy the BBQ stuff.....then the stupid show started and ended so late that by the time i was on my way to east coast, my Mum called and asked me to hurry home cos she and my dad need to go Johor with my bros and I need to wait at home for a really IMPORTANT call.....guess what? no call!!! And i'm not blaming anyone but i really am getting tired of receiving last minute performance schedules....NO ONE WAS EVEN LISTENING TO US!!! sure they looked at us like one would look at an interesting object giving out strange sounds but really.... I think they wasted their money and our time!!!


And for some strange inexplicable reason, people are expecting me to take it all with a pinch of salt, a smile on my face and a positive attitude... Which i can actually do and have done so for soooo many times in the past. So i guess its my fault that thr are people today who treat me like crap, take me for granted and be utterly disrespectful. certain people should KNOW i'm OLDER than them by a good, few YEARS so pls watch your MOUTHS and HANDS!! And of course for people who are older than me, I do believe that I hardly give you any problems, ostentatious as it might sound. Of course, me and my CLOSE friends do call each other names (for eg: Dumb Dumb, don't ask) which are acceptable. But Just because you've known me for like three years doesn't necessarily make you my close friend. If your reason for acting up to me or for your total disrespect is "I don't care you're older" pls kindly stay away from me in the future. I prefer mixing with those of a civillized nature.

Oh, and it might be very difficult for some of you to fathom or believe but i DO in fact have a BRAIN (did i hear a gasp thr?) and am perfectly capable of using it. I have ears and thus can hear things. Got it?? Don't speak to me like I am some lost little boy who needs to be told where the toilet is and how to flush.

Sure, i joke, i laugh at myself, i tease but i do believe in giving and receiving respect in the end, for different reasons ranging frm seniority to age gap to ability. If you're one of those modernist who believes respect should be earned regardless of age and seniority, what are you doing in Asia? sometimes i think its the only thing keeping us from behaving like monkeys waving about a detonator. I'm not telling which monkey. This is not a political blog.

if you are instructed to ask me to do something, be civillized enough to be POLITE and CONSIDERATE, don't sms me at random times of the day DEMANDING i do this i do that then and thr. And this is not going out to just one group of people, I am addressing to everyone who reads this and thus would know me personally.

Just so its clear, i shall state this

I hate:

• people who brag incessently(sp?)
• people who ACT like they are cleverer or better than you when they are NOT.
• people who boss you around because they can
• people who question my every move just because they think they need to(actually i don't mind if you offer alternative suggestions instead of just giving me problems, in fact i prefer it to you just keeping quiet)
• people who dismiss whatever i say as irrelevant only to ask me again for hwtaever it was i said.
• posers
• people who act like THEY are the ONLY people SUFFERING in life. If you think things can't get any worse than your life, go plant yourself in the Sahara. I'm sure you will find the end you deserve.
• AND, I REALLY REALLY HATE SMUG, EGOTISTICAL BASTARDS/BITCHES WHO WILL NOT ADMIT THAT THEY WERE SIMPLY WRONG IN A MATTER!!!

Please keep all of this in mind the next time you interact with me. For those who have been asking for an update, this is it. Sorry if it was not cheery enough for your expectations and again, sorry if i happen to have offended any of you reading this.

I will continue to approach life in a positive attitude in a relatively mellow style that may leave some of you doubting that i have ever had negative thoughts in the first place. I love being cheerful and happy. I like joking with people, friends new and old alike. I don't mind being teased as long as its in proportion. I love talking my head off. i enjoy being lame, no matter how irritating some people claims it to be, it always lightens the mood considerably. of course i laugh at other people being lame. They're funny people.

Oh, and for the last, freaking time, my height is caused by GENETICS. geddit?! Is it soo DIFFICULT to understand?? My father is a tall man. thus, me being my father's son, is ALSO tall. The next person to ask me the question "Why are you so tall?" is going to be met with silence. You don't see me going around asking "Why are you so fat?" "Why are you so dark?" "Why are your eyes small?" because most often than not, these are all genetical factors which we cannot control. For those of you who are still eating long beans to be as 'long' as me so to speak, why don't you eat toothpicks to be thin? really, i've had enough of it. REALLY.

still the same.| 11:20 PM

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key of C. o

try as i may.
i can never explain.

key of D. o

i cant' be somebody.
i'm really not.

key of E. o

i know there's.
some time to change.

key of F. o

everything's changing.
yet i don't feel.
the same.

key of G. o

always caught.
up in circles.
confusion is.
nothing new.

key of A. o

i never believed.
in dreaming.
it never.
got me very far.

key of B. o

i tried.
to find myself.
i always.
get lost.

key of higher C. o

no one see.
me rightly.
i'm always.
a fault.

key of higher D. o

i tried to fly.
away from reality.
but gravity.
pulled me back.

key of higher E. o

still i'll keep on playing.
that same off-tuned key.
that everybody thought of me.