i may not be the best. i may be misunderstood. i know i cannot be that someone you expected me to be. but i am still me. still that same off-tuned key.

i'll keepon playing.




name.Md. Hidhir
gender.Male
age.16++
dob.25 November 1989(Presents!!)
school.Innova Junior College
what i want. friends, world peace, 7A1s, change my password so mojo jojo couldn't come in
what i don't want. certain people to exist,little bros
fav songs. kelly clarkson's n evenescence's n many many more

my lifeas itis.

Thursday, May 17, 2007

I've been feeling under the weather lately, in more ways than one. Headaches won't go away and I think I'm virtually immune to Panadol already. I can't sleep well at night because I worry too much. I don't feel like smiling at all most of the time at home(which is kinda weird for a guy who is known for smiling to himself-the only one in the family who does that).

And I don't know why. I don't feel motivated, even when i'm motivating others. Does that make me a hypocrite? Ah well. I know I'm a hypocrite anyways. My excuse: don't make mistakes I make.

I'm not stressed as much as last year, I think. This year is much more relaxed for me, what with lasser subjects to handle and lesser commitments outside of school. On that topic, I miss singing acappella terribly. I think it kept me sane last year. Wonder how they're all doing without me. I doubt the newer members now I exist, hahaha.

I want to complain about school but I still wanna go for the U.K trip. =)
Oklah, its not so bad. I look at my classmates And i think to myself, "I'm not going through this alone." Must buy them something from U.K, even if its a little something.

And of course, upon hearing that I'm going overseas, a certain GIRL felt compelled to go shoping for her again... I don't mind that actually. But please. I draw the line at kidnapping Daniel Radcliffe.

Feel kinda guilty for my father paying for me for the U.K trip. Contrary to popular belief, my family is NOT well off(not yet anyway, according to my mum; she's always been the optimist).

But still believe life is great. I dunno why. Everytime i think abuot my life, there are a lot of things I wished I had done different but at the same time, I am kinda glad i did all those things. Like going to Innova. I knew I could have gone to PJ, CJ, even AJ if i were to appeal with my big, fat choral background. But I'm still glad i went there.

Den Muhaamda Farhan hates the computer and the internet. Said bloggers are just paces for people to vent out their grieviences and that other people don't really care. I think that venting out is exactly the point of blogging, don't you. he got third prize for IJ Speakers award anyway. Fafimah was waaay better. COngrats FAHIMAH!!!

And now I'm tired bu I have work to do but at the same time I know i'll probably waste time doing useless stuff before i get to work at two o'clock in the morning.

still the same.| 11:24 PM

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key of C. o

try as i may.
i can never explain.

key of D. o

i cant' be somebody.
i'm really not.

key of E. o

i know there's.
some time to change.

key of F. o

everything's changing.
yet i don't feel.
the same.

key of G. o

always caught.
up in circles.
confusion is.
nothing new.

key of A. o

i never believed.
in dreaming.
it never.
got me very far.

key of B. o

i tried.
to find myself.
i always.
get lost.

key of higher C. o

no one see.
me rightly.
i'm always.
a fault.

key of higher D. o

i tried to fly.
away from reality.
but gravity.
pulled me back.

key of higher E. o

still i'll keep on playing.
that same off-tuned key.
that everybody thought of me.